[Once it starts, it can't stop. By now, the sobs are uncontrollable. A dam has burst, allowing months and months' worth of emotions she'd held back to flood out all at once. The anguish, the guilt, the hopelessness, and everything in between. And it's then that she's finally allowed to break.
She willingly allows herself to be gathered into that hug, and wraps her arms around his neck. Clings to him like a lifeline. A capacity for words is beyond lost to her, but when she can catch a breath, she nods against his shirt in response.
Because she needs him, too. What she'd said to him on the beach is still just as true as it ever was.]
[The truth is, she doesn't deserve this. Not really. What she's done has no chance of being absolved until he's out of the Capitol and safe. Until she's killed Snow. Even then, it may never be.
But she can't deny that by the time she's cried out and he pulls away, she feels so much lighter, lighter than she has in almost as long as she can remember. She even manages to give him the smallest of smiles when she's pulled herself together.
There is, though, one more apology she has to make. (Wouldn't Effie be proud right now)]
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She willingly allows herself to be gathered into that hug, and wraps her arms around his neck. Clings to him like a lifeline. A capacity for words is beyond lost to her, but when she can catch a breath, she nods against his shirt in response.
Because she needs him, too. What she'd said to him on the beach is still just as true as it ever was.]
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He pulls away reluctantly once she's calmed down a little.]
Hey. You have me here, okay? I promise, as long as you need me, I'll be there.
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But she can't deny that by the time she's cried out and he pulls away, she feels so much lighter, lighter than she has in almost as long as she can remember. She even manages to give him the smallest of smiles when she's pulled herself together.
There is, though, one more apology she has to make. (Wouldn't Effie be proud right now)]
I'm sorry I pushed you.
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